My sweet daughter,
I have a few confessions to make. Sadly, it has been several months since my last post--so much has happened! I confess--I became discouraged with the blog. I felt as if it was difficult to "keep up." I put too much pressure on myself to make this perfect for you--to post every single day or to write an entire page each time. Once I didn't meet my unreasonable expectations, I just gave up. Silly I know. Yesterday I was bored before bed. Your dad was asleep and I couldn't fall asleep for some reason. I was thinking about you and the fun day we had, so I decided to Google your name. Random, I know. When I "googled" your name, two main links came up. The first link was from the photographer would took your newborn pictures--the link was full of your adorable pictures. The second link was to this blog, so I clicked on it. I began looking through the blog. Several emotions ran through me. First, it made me feel "warm and fuzzy" to relive the days I described in the blog. Second, it made me sad/mad that I did not follow through with the blog. Third, it made me feel determined and encouraged to try the blog again. Sure, I am sad that I missed documenting many things about your first year, but I realized that although your first year was unforgettable and precious, you have many more years ahead of you that I would love to document! So, in an effort to make it up to you, I am going to do one HUGE/GIANT "catch up" blog containing all the highlights from your first year. :) Now, I would like to also confess something right now. I am not going to set myself up for failure again. I am going to do my absolute best to blog as often as possible. I will blog about our days together, the happenings of our family, lessons I learned, or just little things I want to tell you. This blog is for you! This is something that I know we will both treasure. At this point, I am not sure when I am going to reveal the blog to you--16th birthday? 18th birthday? wedding day? when you discover you will be a mommy? I am not sure. But, I am looking for to documenting and sharing everything I can with you. I love you baby girl. Now, on to my HUGE post!
Love,
Mom
